ugh 3224 is messing with my mind. i'm so worried about it that even though the exam is over i just can't get over it. i'll be overjoyed if i can get a B at this rate. the exam was all over the place for me, i was so disorganised and incoherent... i would have preferred doing 2-3 essays in 2 hours than 4. after all, what teachers want is quality, not quantity, right?

2201 just finished today. i'm quite satisfied with how it went, except i have SERIOUS gripes with the questions they gave. there wasn't enough time! 2 case study essays and 1 essay (plus 10 MCQ) in 2 hours! i spent ages on the first case study and the last essay was rushed out in 30 min. it wasn't a good enough essay ):

now it's time to get down to Heavenly Mathematics, and i think i might die, because 1) it's science/math, 2) i skipped like 50% of the lectures/tutorials and 3) i was not born to intuitively and naturally understand how the world works. good luck to me! all i need is a C and i can S/U it!!! i will work hard for this regardless, though. who knows? if i get an A, it might actually help my CAP. IF. yeahhh wishful thinking.

and turns out i won't be working at all during december, cos my cousin had to hire a freelancer as i couldn't start earlier. guess this means no extra $, more time for dr loon's physical theatre thingy and...i seriously need to get down to some srz cleaning! i really want to get down to some srz DIY too... AND COME DECEMBER I WILL GET TO SEE:
cand!
beat!
stef!
sam!
jaebong!
lisette!
steven!
hopefully alex?

i can't wait till school's totally out. this semester has totally been a fight for survival.

i should have stopped you from smoking at all costs.
i should have dropped everything, school, drama, tuition, whatever, the moment you went into ICU.
i should have rushed in at that moment and said goodbye, instead of asking if it was too cold.
i shouldn't have missed that moment to tell you how incredibly and irrefutably important you are to me and that i love you.

i don't believe in regrets, but i sure do have them.

and so, i just want to say, i hope you treasure especially the things you take for granted.
little things, like saying i love you, or thanking your mum for the great dinner she cooked, or asking your dad what his childhood dreams were
these are the things which you should never have regrets about.

p.s. come back soon so i can give you your real present (: xoxoxo

every once in a while, i can break out of the bubble i live in and understand that i'm prolly not ever going to end up doing what i really want.
we study like crazy, and get stressed over projects, and cry ourselves out when we break down. people work 9-5 at a job they don't really like, and do things they don't really want to do and spend money on things like fashion, holidays, houses, cars and all that sort of things because they think they need it and they think it makes their tiredness better and their emptiness fuller.

i don't know
i don't want to be like that, but i'm halfway there i think, that's the way life is. all that passion and dreaming doesn't really do anyone good. it's not going to put food on the table is it!
and everything i'm doing... it's just so i'll get a good job that pays well, but it'll stress me out no doubt about that, so i'll take holidays with my 14 days' leave every year and buy expensive things to make me feel better
and to pay for all those things i'm going to continue at that job which i prolly might not like so much because it's not what i wanted to do in the first place, even though i'm good at it

this is the disillusionment all of us come to deal with once we hit the age that's close to graduation and work. do you know?
yeah we're good at studying, but we study so hard we cry, and it's going to be the same when we work, and it won't ever really stop
of course, while we study, or work, we can still get to do the things we love, like hobbies, but it's not the same is it?

i am now at the age when i can say that family comes before my dream
and it doesn't break my heart to say that even though i've said it the other way around before.
scary isn't it? suddenly we grew up!

you realise it isn't about the thing you care about, but the people that care about you.

one day, i'll put my dream away, in a little box, and lock it up nice and tight so nothing will ever break it,
but not now, because now i still have some hope, and some faith, and some passion,
i'm not ready yet
i'm just saying
so when i read this again, i'll know i'm living without regrets.

i don't know
but i won't live with regrets
every now and then i just have to tell myself, be practical! live honestly!
BE PRACTICAL! LIVE HONESTLY!

i had a nervous breakdown last night and i'm not sure why! i didn't even think i was close to breakdown point at all this semester... i've definitely handled much more before.
i think it's the fact that i got my period this morning, and that i get really really irritable when i have PMS. things that would usually just bug me, turn into things i despise. i have less patience and tolerance. this is terrible. add on some stress and there you go, crazy liyana for you!

breakfast at sarah's ytd was really lovely. pancakes ♥ plain, chocolate, cheese... and jaffa cakes! i don't think i ever thought i'd ever be eating a breakfast cooked by sarah at 10 in the morning! LOL! yay for cand's car (:

exams start in less than 2 weeks' time and i haven't even started studying yet. why am i blogging? because i'm staring at my last 2102 assignment and i'm silently freaking out because it's all about statistics and i don't know shit about them!

1. Identify level of measurements of variables and explain why you think so. (We intentionally set all the variables in the dataset into scale. Don’t be fooled. REMEMBER, if you fail at this bullet point, you won’t get any marks for the following points. )
2. Copy and paste the correct SPSS outputs (if you copied a wrong output, we would not give you any marks for this bullet point because we won’t be able to tell whether you indeed know what is wrong and what is right.)
3. Report descriptive statistics for the variables. REMEMBER, report only those statistics that are appropriate for the variables.
4. Provide interpretations of those descriptive statistics.

this is just the first quarter of it... there's more...

3. Run a SPSS calculation and copy and paste your outputs into the answer sheet. REMEMBER, there is only one appropriate statistics so you choose from one of the following to report.
a. Cross-tabulation analyses – include “Case processing summary”, “Crosstabulation”, and “Chi-Square Tests” (by checking the Chi-Square option in Statistics) tables.
b. Correlation analyses – include “Correlations” table.
c. Independent Sample t-tests – include “Group Statistics” and “Independent Samples Test” tables.
d. One-way ANOVA – include “ANOVA” and “Multiple Comparisons” (by checking the Tukey option in Post Hoc) tables.

WHAT THE. i actually pay attention in class u know! BUT HOW TO DO ALL THIS, DIE. or i prolly do know how to do these, i just don't understand what the question is asking. what does report descriptive statistics for the variables mean?? where do i get these descriptive stats??